Thu, 06 Aug 2009 16:55:08 GMT

As usual, I'm mad at humanity. Bet all of you guys knew this was coming, huh? I'm going to try to keep this short, because really, I'm trying not to dwell, but I need to get it off my chest.

What the fuck is wrong with our society? When people can laugh at someone's misfortune... not even misfortune, really. I can understand laughing at something embarrassing, I do it all the time. But this is another level. This is laughing at someone's extreme pain, someone's humiliation. The fuck is wrong with us? It's not as if she had it coming, these were clearly taken for her boyfriend and before the first set were leaked, so no, she didn't learn her lesson. Her bad for not being psychic. If you don't believe they were taken before the first ones leaked, save one. Right click. Click on properties/details. There's a field that says date taken. Every single one of them was taken between May and December of 2006. The other set was leaked in September of 2007. Do me a favor and do a faceplant off your high horse, kthanks.

I'm so glad to be part of a fandom so amazing. The way I've watched people rally around her and support her makes me proud to be part of this group, seriously. From the great youtube videos popping up to the absolutely beautiful open letter to her from the fans, I love seeing people react the way I would to this. Which is, compassion and understanding, not hypocrisy and hurtfulness.

Dear Vanessa,

Can I just say first that you totally rocked on the show with Alexa Chung? You looked simply stunning and your poise is remarkable. We loved it! And watched it, again and again.

Apparently, your fans were not the only ones watching. Some other people were watching as well. They don’t really matter so we won’t bother with names. These people though, have been watching you for a long long time.

They watched you audition and win a role in a little TV movie. They watched it explode. They watched you travel around the world. They saw your face each time they turned on their TV. They saw your face on merchandise each time they entered the mall. They watched you smile and laugh and giggle. And they stewed, and churned, and developed ulcers from bitterness.

But then, before they could choke on their own bile, they remembered they had access to a set of private pictures you took before fame hit. Then they planned, and watched, and gloated, and sent a sound bite to National Ledger and just after the HSM 2 premiere, in the midst of promo, when you were on a high point in your career, they released one picture and let National Ledger know there were more.

Then they watched and gloated and waited for you to fade to nothing. Oh no! What happened? You didn’t fade! You took responsibility and weathered it, and grew stronger, and more poised, and more beautiful. And your face didn’t disappear, it was still on the screens, and the merchandise, and the magazine covers, with that smile, oh that smile. And they were left with pain, the pain of a failed effort.

So they waited. Again. And watched. Watched you premiere HSM 3, watched it take the world box office, watched you captured by the talented camera of Annie L, watched you shimmer at the Golden Globes, watched you perform at the Oscars, watched you land a role in Zack Snyder’s Sucker Punch and headline CBSfilms’ Beastly, watched your beauty blossom and mature and glow. And they stewed and churned and brooded. And their ulcers became unbearable. How dare you attempt to build a career beyond HSM! You were supposed to fade away!!!

So they planned, and watched, and stewed. With perfect timing, right in the midst of another promo, around another premiere, at a high point in your career, they released the other private pictures, hoping, hoping ever so earnestly that these work and make you fade away. The poor things.

My dear, I can’t even begin to imagine how hard this is for you because you’ve worked really hard and have had to overcome a lot of obstacles to get to where you are. However, we need you to do something for us. Please, hold your head up high, and straighten your shoulders, and be strong. You are not alone. We all stand with you, because we all are flawed. More importantly, someone much greater, and much more gracious, is standing with you as well, and watching over you. You are blessed. And your personality radiates with their blessing. No, you are not to be pitied at all.

We reserve our pity for the poor things who have sat on private pictures of a 17 year old for years, perving and brooding and plotting and stewing and dying slowly. Imagine the pain of such a life, and the deformity of such a mind, and the barrenness of such a heart, and feel deep pity for them.

You will continue to bloom and blossom and learn and grow, because good always triumphs over evil. And we will stand with you all the way, watching, and supporting, and loving you always, and unconditionally.

Your fans.

Meanwhile, the Vanessa who has grown up and learned from her mistakes is busy doing things like this.

Ten-year-old Wendy Campos was your everyday average girl who enjoyed playing, shopping and watching movies such as the popular High School Musical series; that was, until April 30, 2008, when she was diagnosed with a brain tumor.

"One day, she began complaining of these blinding headaches," her mother, Mirna Godinez, said. "Less than a week later, she was having surgery to remove a tumor." Godinez said the diagnosis came out of nowhere, and while the family prayed, Wendy went through months of radiation and chemotherapy. She was declared cancer free in early March, only to relapse on March 13. "The original tumor was gone," Godinez said. "Killed by the treatments and the surgery. But another tumor had formed on her brain stem. And we were told there was nothing they could do."

Wendy, who had been referred to the local chapter of Make-A-Wish, the organization that works to grant wishes for children battling potentially terminal illnesses, last August, suddenly became a priority for having a wish granted. Wendy's wish was to meet teen idol and "High School Musical" star Vanessa Hudgens. Karen Iglesias, president of Make-A-Wish Foundation of Southern Nevada, said that Wendy's wish originally was planned to be carried out later on this year, and wish granters weren't even 100 percent certain they could make it happen.

"We were trying to work around Vanessa's schedule in an attempt to plan a visit, but she was filming and it was tough," Iglesias said. Then the foundation received a call from Wendy's doctor, who told granters that the little girl didn't have much time left.

"We knew now that she had probably only weeks to live," Iglesias said. "Which boosted her case to be a rush wish. She was deteriorating more every day, and our fear was that she would leave us before we could get something worked out with Vanessa's people." According to Iglesias, when Hudgens got the call about meeting Wendy, she shut down filming on a project she was working on in New York and rushed to the sick girl's side.

"She dropped everything and came to Nevada," Iglesias said. "Celebrity wishes can be tricky because some celebrities are great, others aren't so great. But Vanessa, she really went above and beyond." Wendy got her wish on the evening of May 13 when Hudgens arrived at the home she shared with her mother and three sisters. By that time, Wendy was unable to walk or speak but still made facial expressions to communicate. But according to Godinez, her elation at her idol's visit was more than apparent. "She got this great, surprised look on her face," Godinez said. "It really was a dream come true for her."

Godinez said that Hudgens spent more than an hour with the girl, singing to her, holding her and stroking her face.

"She was really incredible," Godinez said. "I will be forever grateful for the experience she gave my daughter." Wendy died May 24, surrounded by those who loved her most. Godinez said that while it is still hard to cope with the loss of her first-born child, she finds the memory of Wendy meeting Hudgens comforting. "I can still see the look on her face when she saw Vanessa," she said. "It was her final wish. And to see it come true ... words can't describe the comfort that brings me. That we could do that for her."

The Make-A-Wish Foundation of Southern Nevada grants approximately 150 wishes per year, an average of three per week, to children fighting life-threatening medical conditions. The charity operates on 100 percent donations from the community. "Sometimes the wish brings much needed respite to families dealing with terrible illness," Iglesias said. "On many occasions, these wishes will lift the spirit of the child who will go on to make a wonderful recovery and live a happy life. On other occasions, it can be one of the last happy experiences that the family will enjoy together. That was the case with Wendy." (source.)

Things like this are what we should be concentrating on. Things like this are who she really is, but the haters will write this off. Forget the fact that she flew out there with no fanfare, forget the fact that she hasn't even mentioned it to gain attention for it, it doesn't matter. Someone doing a good thing isn't worth your time, but someone being flawed is great. Hilarious, even. Whatever, the haters can have their fucked up little bubble. At the end of the day, I know I enjoy the positive things in life, and they can't see past the negative to truly enjoy much of anything.

In closing?

Wed, 05 Aug 2009 16:41:51 GMT

I think I'm going to cry for her. And stay away from every fucking gossip site for a long time.

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